Pay It Forward

They call it pay it forward. We call it blessing others with the blessings that we have received.

I was first introduced to this concept by a friend of mine. His heart for the needy is so big I can't even. I've always admired him and secretly wished to be him in that aspect.

Then I came to Brisbane. I met this bunch of people who are now my life group mates. They opened my eyes to the extent of love that I've never experienced before. I have always been taught that when we learn to lean on God and draw closer to Him, our hearts will be more and more a reflection of His. It took me 20 years to finally understand it, simply based on the experiences I've gone through in this year. They say Christianity is different from all the other religions because it is not just a religion but a relationship. God wants us to be more and more like Him, to love others as ourselves.

It was a huge leap for me. Doing that means I'll have to put others' above myself. But then I see others doing it, and I started to think that if others can, why can't I? I decided to give it a shot. It really was not that hard after all. At times when I think I am running dry, I get reminded of the blessings that I have been receiving. I don't want it to just stop at myself, I want it to be passed on.

Happiness is really contagious. Just seeing others happy make me extremely happy. I guess that's what made me happy throughout this SWOTVAC. What I've gotta learn is really to give God the credit that He deserves, instead of stealing His glory, because He is the source of all blessings. I'm sure the Father up above must be extremely proud of His children who are learning to love and care for others .

I am still a newbie in this aspect, but I definitely hope that this culture will just expand in today's world. 

Ashamed

Should I be ashamed of myself?
YES.

I was just in uni doing the usual life group study group during swotvac (Study without teaching vacation, basically just study break lol). I've planned all along in my head that I wanted to cook for the people who come for study groups. I looked at my schedule, and I reconsidered my decision. The reason of all that happening was because I was so busy throughout the semester that I had to skip most of my lectures and I have quite a bit to catch up.

One of my pharmacy friend who has five papers this year-end said she would cook dinner for everyone who are there today. I went speechless. Why is my heart so selfish when others are so selfless? I only have two papers, yet I put my agendas so high up that I failed to look beyond.

Ashamed and guilty. 

No way I was going to let her do it herself while I stand there and watched. I decided to help, but that did not stop me from feeling bad about myself. I wish I could be less self-centered.