Ashamed

Should I be ashamed of myself?
YES.

I was just in uni doing the usual life group study group during swotvac (Study without teaching vacation, basically just study break lol). I've planned all along in my head that I wanted to cook for the people who come for study groups. I looked at my schedule, and I reconsidered my decision. The reason of all that happening was because I was so busy throughout the semester that I had to skip most of my lectures and I have quite a bit to catch up.

One of my pharmacy friend who has five papers this year-end said she would cook dinner for everyone who are there today. I went speechless. Why is my heart so selfish when others are so selfless? I only have two papers, yet I put my agendas so high up that I failed to look beyond.

Ashamed and guilty. 

No way I was going to let her do it herself while I stand there and watched. I decided to help, but that did not stop me from feeling bad about myself. I wish I could be less self-centered.