A mistake?

"You give me the feeling that you're the type of person who loves nature."
"When I first met you, the first thing that crossed my mind was that, 'whoa, this girl is too cool, I better not mess with her'."
"Do you swim? 'Cause your shoulders are quite broad for a girl your size."
"You just have this aura with you, I don't know how to describe it."
"Gosh, when I first knew you, you were so quiet, and look at you now!"
"I wouldn't have talked to you if you and I were of the same age, you just look too scary. But now, knowing that you're two years younger actually makes a lot of difference."
"Well, I wouldn't say you're unapproachable, I wasn't intimidated, I just never thought that we can click this well and have an unending conversation."
"My first impression of you is that you really know what you're doing, I like your confidence."
"I would never have guessed that you're a Malaysian from your English accent, or even your Mandarin accent."
"You're quiet? Neh, I wouldn't say so."

I have this habit of trying to back-track how I first got to know someone, and recalling the first few moments, often awkward, when we just met. I find it very interesting to know what someone first thought of me, and if they still think of me the same after knowing me for a while. It amazes me how different people notice different aspects of a new person they meet. Some pay more attention to one's outward appearance, the way they dress and bring themselves, some read other's body language and facial expressions. It also exemplifies how some people are straight forward in their speech, while some are more comfortable with euphemism. More interestingly, different people might say totally contradictory things about a person they just meet. For example, some think that I am quiet, and others don't. I guess, at the end of the day, it boils down to how close you are to that person, and also how different people have different ways of thoughts.

Yesterday, I was with a group of friends who tried to relate me to a couple of mutual friends, finding someone with a similar personality as I do, but was in vain. I got reminded of Psalms 139:14, 'You are fearfully and wonderfully made', which is indeed true. Every one of us is made so similar yet so different, we are all so unique in God's eyes.

What others think of you doesn't really matter after all. Good first impressions do not give you eternal security. What people think of you might not be who you really are. There is no point to fake who you are in order to get acceptance from the people around you, or try to be someone you are not. Because the Creator knows what is best, and He does not make mistakes. You, are not a mistake.