Human Logic

Sometimes, God keeps quiet. But today, it just wasn't the 'sometime'. In fact, He was extremely vocal.

It started off right at the beginning, during pre-service prayer. We read about the five loaves and two fishes in the book of John. Always I see this scripture from God's point of view, seeing how great Jesus is when we entrust him with the little that we have. But today, it spoke to me very differently. The boy gave Jesus ALL that he had. It's like the case of the poor widow with two copper coins. The disciples knew that they didn’t have enough, which was why they chose not to give. But the boy had little, yet chose to entrust ALL that he had to God. It just made me reflect on my life, how much of my resources have I entrusted God with?

While praying, I was thinking of the calculative mindset I always have. Me being Asian, I tend to calculate how much more I need to save up for my own needs and not responding to the spirit when I need to. This is how much I get a month, and I will have to take away my rent, my bills and whatnot, and I will have...uhh just this much left for you, God. A sudden feeling of shame came over me. There's just so much more that I can do.

A figure popped in my head out of the blue halfway through the sermon. It felt like God was telling me to pledge that much for the church building fund. 'God are you crazy?!' was my immediate response. That's double of what I gave last year, and more than half of my allowance. But but...if I tithe, and give offering, and cook for cell group and bless others, I won't have enough left to give You that much! All the excuses started flooding in. It's ironic how today's sermon was about faithful giving - not reasoning with the economy of the world but of heaven.

"Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously." God has promised us blessings when we give generously unto His kingdom, but it is us who will have to unlock His blessings. He blesses us not only so that we will be blessed, but so that we will be blessed to bless others. It's rather profound, and it's almost unexplainable by human logic. But our God doesn't work with human logic, and so we should not try to understand Him with human logic.