I am a strong believer of the saying “Everything happens for a reason”, and often because of that, I tend to try to find out the reason behind everything that has ever happened to me. However, many a time, I just end up being dejected and disappointed. As years passed, I finally came to a conclusion that that is not the smartest thing to do after all. Some things just happen because God has planned it to be that way.
I remember when I first stepped into college, I was so involved in many activities, clubs and societies that I hardly had any time left for myself, or even God. Every single day of the week, I had at least an event going on, be it Student Council meeting, hovercraft construction project, debate discussion or volunteering with AFS. Without me noticing, all these activities had become perfect excuses for me to miss Christian Fellowship.
End of semester came. And that was when I realized that I had only attended CF four times. Yes, even I myself was shocked. So, where had the promise of “I will go for CF every week” gone to? But God would not just let me live in guilt forever.
The phone rang, it was the soon-to-be CF vice president. She asked me if I would want to take up the post of being the Head of Ushers and Follow-up team alongside with another senior. No kidding, I was about to decline, but something in me just made me accept it. For a few weeks, the thought that it was me and not any other CF members being given this privilege disturbed me day and night. I mean, why was it me when there are many other passionate members? I was not even anywhere close to being a regular attendee.
Well, I had already agreed on joining the team, there was literally no turning back.
Somewhere along the way, the treasurer decided to quit and I was to take over. This time, I did not hesitate. What surprised me was that I actually enjoyed being in the team. Assistant cell group leader, pianist in the worship team, treasurer; it is not easy to juggle between studies and all these responsibilities, but when I think of God who once sacrificed everything for our sake, the tiny sacrifices that we make become so incomparable.
Come to think about it, all along, it was God whom had led me through these times. He just could not bear seeing me go astray. How much more can I thank Him for not leaving me hanging by a thread just because I have forsaken Him?
“No matter how far you go in life, one day you will find yourself going back to the center of all, which is God.” I could not agree more with what my Physics lecturer once told the class.
So, what is the point of being in search of the reason behind everything? We all clearly know that the reason lies in God’s hands, and all we need to do is just trust and obey. When the day comes, He will let you know if it were meant to be known.
HAVE FAITH.
